Let me give you the lowdown.

So, we start tech tomorrow for Crazy For You. (AHH!)

I've come to the conclusion that it is entirely impossible to do this show without the process being completely, well- crazy! Pretty much everything you could throw into a show to make it difficult, this show has it. (40 actors, a ginormous set, huge production numbers, tap dancing, cues in the triple letter range, etc.) And then you add on top of that a director that was in China for 2 weeks, a generally rambunctious cast, a non-cooperative collaboration with the Schwob, and things are bound to get sticky.

Lately I have been feeling alot of negativity surrounding this show... and to be honest last night it really hit me how upset it made me after I heard a comment someone made, insinuating that they didn't care about their perfomance and that they were not going to do their best. I was SO mad. Because you know what? I love performing. I love being on stage. I love being in musicals. I honestly love this show. Yes, its cheesy and the plot may be contrived... but I just love the music, the time period, and the style of the show, because it's just FUN. I was really excited to do this show when it was announced, but at the start it was met with negativity from others, just because it's not a trendy, dark, contemporary musical.

And you know after auditions I maybe did not get the role I wanted, but I did get a very good role that I've grown to love over this process. I am not the person that gets cast in every mainstage, and I understand that I just don't fit alot of the shows we do here. But this is my thing....and I feel like it's my time to shine- and it just is a shame when people aren't putting their whole effort into it because I feel shortchanged, honestly. Because every single time I go on stage to rehearse, I give my absolute all. And I am working hard out there, as are many others in the cast, of course! But then- I feel like there are certain people that come across as they don't care and that just bugs me so much, because if you don't CARE...then WHY are you here? Why would you even be in theatre if you don't enjoy it with all of your soul and being? And why would you not do your best? I don't understand that at all. And it makes those that do care seem shortchanged because if everyone is not giving their all, then the show is not going to be the best that it could be.

Contrary to the negative opinion some like to swirl about this show, it is going to be an awesome show overall. It really is unlike anything I have ever seen CSU do... I really think people will be surprised at the talent our department has! I'm actually pretty proud of it... but lately I just am getting more and more frustrated with the negativity that surrounds it. There is no use for that here. This is an educational theatre setting, and we need to all learn to be mature and make the best of our situations. I just wish people would have more fun while at the same time taking it seriously. I know it will all come together wonderfully. It's just a stressful time for everyone right now what with starting tech week, and one-acts, and general auditions next week, and homework assignments, etc... But I really can't wait for the show to open because I know that it is going to be so much fun! =]

TOTALLY PIMPIN'

So here's a treat- I actually logged into my old myspace and was reading through my blogs that I wrote in it (I wrote in that blog feature all the time!)

There have been so many strange things I said I just feel like I need to re-live these moments- it is interesting to go back and read REALLY old things... haha

"I want to do my nails but I can't because concentration camp victims cannot have french tips! Alas it must wait until Sunday." (I CAN CRY!)

"I still have THE BEAR in my car!" (Harlem Drama folks, that's for you.)

"I was pretty happy that Mrs. Feldman didn't say I was a disgrace to the Jewish culture"

"On a happier note, I just want everyone to know that I have the pimpest boyfriend ever (I'm on the second page and I have used the word "pimp," "pimpin," or "pimpest" in all seriousness to describe many a thing so far. I'm ashamed. I think I used it twice in one entry alone.)"

"SODA AND WHITE BREAD ARE THE DEVILS TOOLSSSSSS" (Even back then, I was a health nut. hahah)

"*NOTE TO SELF* Never wear my flouncy red/ORANGE skirt on a blustery day. "

"I would say 2005 was a PIMPTASTIC year." (Of course it was, my 16 year old self!)

"But you do not realize the excitement which swells within my heart. Be gone, Windows 98! No more randomly popping up blue warning screens! Gone are the days of 20 minutes to dial-up AOL! No sir. Not anymoooree! :O)"

"I will be performing on October 20th that night ( not sure what time yet) and the same day during 5th and 6th periods! Beg your teachers to let you come b/c it will be pimptastic fo shEEZY." (WHAT)

"But anyways, ebay is such a great thing!! They had a Gophers Xing sign that I really want to put in my room...but I probably won't end up getting it.. but if I do that would be AMAZING! You have no idea.. like gophers are really great. " (......I'm completely baffled at myself. bahaha)

There are many more, but I was dying laughing.

Unexpectations!

So I realized I haven't blogged in awhile. But this is what has been up lately-

First of all, I went to SETC! I had a pretty good time. The drive to Kentucky was not half as bad as I thought it would be- and I had a great time staying with Melissa! =] (Separation anxiety!) haha. But I was proud of us because we were very focused the whole time, and the whole trip was very business-oriented, but fun at the same time. (Especially when we were DONE with our grueling day-long audition processes!)

So this is how it went- basically everyone has their time that they do their main audition, which is the 90 second song/monologue spiel. When you are done, like 10 minutes later you go look for your callbacks and then you have to schedule them throughout the day with the companies that called you back. The companies that called me back were The Lost Colony, which does like an outdoor drama (with Indians, of course!) and other shows as well including the Wizard of Oz! it seems like a good company to work for. The callback was a little strange however- it was in a small hotel bedroom and the director asked me awkward questions like how many other callbacks I got and things like that, but maybe thats just how they all were? It was a little hard to read. I basically just performed what I did in my initial audition again.

Also Missoula Children's Theatre called me back- which is a crazy company- basically you take 2 tour-actors together and ship them off to a different locale each week to hold auditions and put on a children's musical, with one of the tour-actors being in it as well (They switch actor/director positions every week.) You get to stay in hotels or friendly locals who offer their home up to you (And that means food as well. Pocketing per diem? yes please!) You do work every single day- but you are free at 4, so you have the rest of the day to explore the city you are in! It sounds very interesting- and pays pretty good, too! My callback with them went pretty well, I stayed for the extra interview portion, and I have pretty good credentials for it. So we'll see!

The other company that called me back was the Jenny Wiley Theatre. Technically they didn't call anyone back, but they asked for certain people's headshots and resume, and mine was one. So who knows that that means.

All in all, it would have been nice to get more callbacks- but seeing as I was only available during the summer it cut down the jobs quite a bit, I think. Regardless, I did my best and that's all I could do! I'm excited to see what happens this summer, and if nothing does- then I guess I'll just be taking some classes and working my butt off at some restaurant to make some desperately needed money! Whatever happens, will happen and will be. I just have to let it go.

On another note, I started a new blog! In my last post I discussed starting one, so here it is! Ironically, I didn't name it what i originally planned, and the first recipe is for a salad, haha- but it is not the typical salad that I hate. (Those white-ish iceberg lettuce salads with pieces of watery lettuce, red cabbage, and ranch dressing. Yuck.) So check it out if you want- it's basically my outlet for all my food rants I go on haha. If I wasn't already an actress/singer/makeup artist/jewelry & accessory designer I would be a nutritionist or some sort of health/vegetarian advocate on the side. But I have too many hobbies already. This is the best I can do. haha! :P

Anyways, Crazy For You starts tech week soon which is totally unbelievable. TIME HAS GONE BY SO FAST. I also start 83 Down tomorrow which is exciting! The show is totally crazy but it will be a lot of fun, I can already tell. So life will be significantly more stressful, but honestly- it won't be TOO bad. I mean, last year I did tech for Machinal, stage managed a One-Act, was IN a one-act, and was in 2 freestages at around the same time. So I survived then, I can survive now I think!