In the sun

So life as of late has been quite interesting, lots of new things happening- I started my new job (Red Robin,) bought some new things with said money from new job which was nice seeing as I never buy myself anything cool really. I actually got a webcam finally, which I have been meaning to get. I consider it an investment in my acting career- because I mean there are just so many video-auditions these days, and so many people get opportunities from YouTube! So be on the lookout soon for my new channel. The world may never be the same...haha! :P Also I am thinking of getting Skype, I just don't know who all has one. So out yourself, fellow skypers!

Also, I've just had a great time meeting new people lately, which is great, and I'm having a blast- but I'm also trying to not rush into anything- I definitely do need some time for myself still!

Theatrically, my life is going well- I just had my audition for this year's season of the Springer Opera House last night, and I am being considered for the leads in High School Musical and did a reading which is very cool! I'm also getting excited for Spelling Bee in the fall... even though it is kind of pushed in the back of my mind at the moment, everytime a song comes on my shuffle on my iPod I get a little tinge of excitement! =]

I'm just enjoying some time away from hecticness, being able to just lounge at my pool or stop over at the mall whenever I want is very very nice. Even though I'm taking a class right now, it's so easy that it doesn't even phase me at all.

Also, I've downloaded some great new music, and can definitely make some recommendations-
-She & Him- Zooey Deschanel's band, very summer-esque and wistful.
-Florence and the Machine- Reminds me of a mix between Fiona Apple, Kate Nash, and Regina Spektor.
-La Roux- Electronic/pop. Very fun. Love it.
-Pomplamoose- my best friend Erin showed me this band and I'm in love. They are kind of like The Bird and The Bee. They have some really awesome covers- my favorite is this one:

Shop with me!

So today I went window shopping. I couldn't really buy anything since I am pretty much broke, but once I start my new job at Red Robin that won't be the case anymore! :D (I start tomorrow night by the way. training for 6 hours haha.)

In my shopping adventure, I found a few items that I really want...
One is a pair of jeans leggings. Now at first I was unsure of how I felt about them, and I wasn't sure how they would look on me, but it turns out that I think if you get a good quality pair like these ones from Express, they are pretty great.
That is what they look like on a fashion model. Here is what they look like on a normal person like me (along with some super cute tops from Express, as well. I especially love the turquoise one!) I really like Express because alot of the clothes are really figure flattering on curvy gals like me. I really liked this skirt because it was shaped with wide hip-room :P

Moving on from Express, I actually decided to walk into the Rave. Now, I know what you are thinking- The Rave?! But I actually find really cute things there, and not bad quality, really! I have a cute studded sweater from there that is still in good shape after a fall/winter season, and I'm pretty sure I got it for like $5.
But the whole reason I stopped in there was because I saw this particular dress on the mannequin in the front and was like.. ahhh so cute!

And to boot- it's super duper comfortable. I really want it. I have an affinity for one-shoulder things, and black dresses, so what a perfect combo haha.

Another thing I want this summer season, along with jeans leggings and this flowy one-shoulder dress is a romper. This one was super cute- I definitely think I would need a belt with it though. But it's just flowy and cottony and breezy and perfect for the summer months! (My purse strap is awkwardly sitting there haha)
But there we go- a window shopping journey. I can't wait until I get some money so I can buy a couple things without feeling super duper guilty, haha.

An exhale

Ahh...so the semester and year is officially over. The amount of relaxation that I feel is unparalleled! It's just so nice to be free from everything stressful going on- classes, rehearsals, etc. Yesterday I had a day of complete relaxation- I went to the pool and hung out with my new roommates Melissa and Chase, watched T.V., ate brownies, etc. It was very nice, although today I had to make up for my day of not accomplishing anything by going job hunting and accomplishing a myriad of other errands. It turned out quite successfully though-I think I may be getting a job at Red Robin which is nice. Buffalo Wild Wings seemed like another option as well. But at any rate, I'm excited about the notion of making my own money again and watching my bank account increase as well as dwindle away... it gets depressing lol. But yes, so today was successful!

Tomorrow I am headed to Panama City Beach and I am beyond excited. I haven't been to the beach since my Stress Free Spring Break, I think! Which wasn't a true beach trip since it was too cold =[ But it should be nice and warm, now which is exciting. And I'm going with a bunch of pretty fun people and staying at a nice beach house with a private pool and beach, for free! Can't beat that. I went out and bought some groceries today for the trip, including lots of yummy raw veggies and fruit. =] I'm excited to just lay out by the pool and relax and maybe go out and get dressed up at night. That is always a fun notion.

I have to say that I have more of a carefree attitude on life at the moment. I'I feel like I'm just generally being able to have fun with people. I like it.

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So, now I'm heading towards the end of my junior year in college. Wow. It is hard to believe.
In this past year, I honestly feel like I've done so much growing up. I've gone through alot of struggle, and overcame alot of obstacles and really came through on top. This is the year that all the hard work that I have put into this theatre department has finally paid off and I feel as if I have prevailed! It really is a nice feeling. I got a great role in Crazy For You and received the ACTF nomination, I got cast as Ms Peretti in Spelling Bee next fall, I passed on to SETC, I got inducted into APO, I made all A's in everything including Directing 1- a challenge that I was nervous to undertake, I've made great strides in Meisner class, I got cast as a great role in the One-Acts- alot of these things came to pass and I am so very grateful and appreciative of them.

Amid my successes that I've had, I've also dealt with really stressful situations regarding relationships and such. At this point I question my ability to maintain a relationship at all, and my ability to be able to really let myself let down my guard completely. I don't know if I have ever been able to do that, actually- completely let down my guard- I think that is the reason why I tend to be so independent. Usually I would rather just come home after class/rehearsal and do homework by myself rather than just hang out with a boyfriend. Even when in a relationship I tend to be in the "single life" mindset. So from here on out, I have decided that I definitely am just not going to be in a relationship, until after college. Because firstly I don't know of anyone that I would date, and secondly I don't know of anyone that would be able to date me. Because I don't know what people think, but I'm not an easy person to date. Not that I'm high maintenance, and annoying, or overly clingy, or I'm jealous all the time, but I'm really different than most other girls when it comes to relationships in the fact that I'm emotionally like the guy (in a relationship) I'm not a very emotional person to begin with, I don't get angry or upset very easily and I'm pretty laid back and go with the flow. But it's very strange...like, I'll read these articles in girly magazines regarding relationships and I find myself on the guy's side- like I sympathize with the guy because that is how I feel! Haha. I'm not quite sure what this says about me. But that's just how it is.

So anyways, I'm content being single at the moment and focusing on schoolwork and getting out of here and moving on to bigger and better things with my life. Besides, I'm taking Directing 3 in the fall which is going to take alot out of me, along with Spelling Bee and 2 hard main campus classes. I'm excited but it's definitely going to be alot of work, I can tell.

Regardless, I'm totally ready for this semester to be over....one more week!!! And I'll be done! =]