I miss you so much.
Even though I know you are better off where you are- I can't help but selfishly want you here.
I can't believe it has been 6 years since I've been able to hug you...
I love you.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
cleanliness
So, if you know me at all- you know that I'm a bit of a well... a slob.
I usually have no qualms about throwing clothes on the floor, and leaving dishes in my room for longer than I should, and leaving hair and makeup products sprawled all over the bathroom counter and floor along with more clothes and towels.
But lately, after some intense spring/summer cleaning including bleaching out the bathroom- I have been so anal retentive about keeping everything clean, as well as re-organizing. I organized and cleaned out underneath the bathroom sink, my dressers, my closet, my bookshelf, and other set of drawers.
It's really strange. But in a good way, I suppose! It's time for me to grow up and stop being so messy. I think that I'm just realizing how nicer it feels to come home to a clean room instead of having to tread carefully so I don't step on the back of an earring and have it pierce through my foot. (which has happened several times. OUCH.)
Another thing that is a bit strange that I have been obsessed with, which I shared on my Video Blog, is my strange obsession with dental care. I used to literally NEVER floss except for a few days before my dental exam in which I knew they would judge me for not flossing and I thought I could trick them by starting a few days before- but they always knew...
But lately I find myself flossing 2-3 times a day. It's like I have this thing where I feel like if one speck of something may be in my teeth I just gotta get it out! And my teeth feel so nice and shiny. I also bought some teeth whitening strips to make my teeth even whiter! Haha. The next time I see a dentist they are going to be pleased. But seriously, it's a strange thing how all of a sudden I'm so obsessed with teeth. I don't understand! haha! but like the cleaning thing...it's not a bad thing. Flossing is good for you, and a nice, bright smile is never a bad thing. Especially as an actress/waitress! :P
Speaking of, things at Red Robin are going well! I am finally really getting the hang of everything and making some pretty nice money. I definitely can't complain, although sometimes it gets tiring, especially when I work 2 doubles in a row...ugh! But it's so nice to come home with cash every shift!
I usually have no qualms about throwing clothes on the floor, and leaving dishes in my room for longer than I should, and leaving hair and makeup products sprawled all over the bathroom counter and floor along with more clothes and towels.
But lately, after some intense spring/summer cleaning including bleaching out the bathroom- I have been so anal retentive about keeping everything clean, as well as re-organizing. I organized and cleaned out underneath the bathroom sink, my dressers, my closet, my bookshelf, and other set of drawers.
It's really strange. But in a good way, I suppose! It's time for me to grow up and stop being so messy. I think that I'm just realizing how nicer it feels to come home to a clean room instead of having to tread carefully so I don't step on the back of an earring and have it pierce through my foot. (which has happened several times. OUCH.)
Another thing that is a bit strange that I have been obsessed with, which I shared on my Video Blog, is my strange obsession with dental care. I used to literally NEVER floss except for a few days before my dental exam in which I knew they would judge me for not flossing and I thought I could trick them by starting a few days before- but they always knew...
But lately I find myself flossing 2-3 times a day. It's like I have this thing where I feel like if one speck of something may be in my teeth I just gotta get it out! And my teeth feel so nice and shiny. I also bought some teeth whitening strips to make my teeth even whiter! Haha. The next time I see a dentist they are going to be pleased. But seriously, it's a strange thing how all of a sudden I'm so obsessed with teeth. I don't understand! haha! but like the cleaning thing...it's not a bad thing. Flossing is good for you, and a nice, bright smile is never a bad thing. Especially as an actress/waitress! :P
Speaking of, things at Red Robin are going well! I am finally really getting the hang of everything and making some pretty nice money. I definitely can't complain, although sometimes it gets tiring, especially when I work 2 doubles in a row...ugh! But it's so nice to come home with cash every shift!
movin' out!
Lately I've had such a desire to pack up and move to NYC. It keeps coming up in my mind and things I see and I keep hearing about it, and it just makes me crave to leave this small town behind and just GO!
I only have a year left of school-, and a year ago feels like just yesterday so I can sense just how fast the time went by. It's a little scary to think about life after graduation, and I have been contemplating alot lately about where I am going to be headed to once that happens.
I've narrowed it down to Chicago or NYC. I've always thought how crazy it would be to move to NYC right out of college- but so many people have done it- just how crazy would it be? Of course I would probably live at home for a few months and save up some money (No rent or groceries! Yay!) before I go anywhere, but honestly- I'm just so ready to get out of here, no matter where I go. But lately I've just had the strange feeling like I want to go right to NYC for some reason. But who knows right now- my mind changes so much!
I'm just over school. And yes, I know I have a year left, but I will be counting down the months with great joy I guarantee you- the last September...DONE...the last October..DONE...soon it will be the last Fall semester...DONE...I just can't wait! Although I do have to say, I am very excited about what the year will bring for me. I've got Spelling Bee, GTC auditions, ACTF competition, Senior Project, possibly a Springer show, and we still haven't cast our Spring semester at CSU yet. There are so many great opportunities that I am blessed to be a part of and that will be very stressful, but I just have a good feeling that things will be fruitful for me this year. I know they will.
But I just have all these feelings, like, there is so much going on out in the world that I can't be a part of because I'm still in school. And I just feel really stifled in this town.
But soon I'll be gone. I guess I should just enjoy it while I am here, huh?
I only have a year left of school-, and a year ago feels like just yesterday so I can sense just how fast the time went by. It's a little scary to think about life after graduation, and I have been contemplating alot lately about where I am going to be headed to once that happens.
I've narrowed it down to Chicago or NYC. I've always thought how crazy it would be to move to NYC right out of college- but so many people have done it- just how crazy would it be? Of course I would probably live at home for a few months and save up some money (No rent or groceries! Yay!) before I go anywhere, but honestly- I'm just so ready to get out of here, no matter where I go. But lately I've just had the strange feeling like I want to go right to NYC for some reason. But who knows right now- my mind changes so much!
I'm just over school. And yes, I know I have a year left, but I will be counting down the months with great joy I guarantee you- the last September...DONE...the last October..DONE...soon it will be the last Fall semester...DONE...I just can't wait! Although I do have to say, I am very excited about what the year will bring for me. I've got Spelling Bee, GTC auditions, ACTF competition, Senior Project, possibly a Springer show, and we still haven't cast our Spring semester at CSU yet. There are so many great opportunities that I am blessed to be a part of and that will be very stressful, but I just have a good feeling that things will be fruitful for me this year. I know they will.
But I just have all these feelings, like, there is so much going on out in the world that I can't be a part of because I'm still in school. And I just feel really stifled in this town.
But soon I'll be gone. I guess I should just enjoy it while I am here, huh?
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