wearing thin.

Sometimes I feel like I am just being pulled in 10293809 different directions, and like I have to appease people constantly... is that weird? Like, right now I have so much going on that it is almost ridiculous.

• I'm in 2 freestages.
• I am Stage Managing a one-act.
• I am probably going to be IN a one-act as well.
• I am Assistant Props Master for Machinal.
• I am in a voice class that requires a 30 min. rehearsal a week with an accompanist as well as every day.
• I am in another voice class that requires rehearsals every day.
• I am in a Meisner/Acting class that requires an hour of rehearsal a week.
• I was just offered to design the makeup for the character of Mark Twain in Big River at the Springer Opera House, which starts tech runs on March 1st-5th
  
• (The first freestage I am in OPENS on March 2nd)
• I am required to work Thespian Conference this upcoming weekend.
• I am trying to maintain an A average in all my classes.
• I have a boyfriend.

Thankfully, the last point is not one of stress, but I still feel bad and I try to make more time for him than I do. The only times I really get to see him, however are are after midnight and by then I am so exhausted from the day I can hardly stay awake.

Now don't get me wrong, I really enjoy everything that I do. I love to be involved in theatre. But sometimes with all of the classes and just extra stuff going on- it gets to be a little much. And it wouldn't be that bad if I didn't agree to do EVERYTHING I want to ever do. Logically, I wouldn't have accepted roles for One-acts. But of course I am going to, because I want to perform. I want to show the department what I can do. I feel as if I am in this constant phase of proving myself to everyone. I am not sure if that is a good thing necessarily, but it drives me to always be better so I don't see that it would be bad. I just tend to get in over my head sometimes...

*sigh*

At times like this I just want to be able to be one of those people that just goes to classes and comes home and watches TV... or just hangs out at the mall with their friends...or plays video games for hours at a time.

I'd get sick of that though, and find something to do soon I'm sure.

again and again and again and again

The Bird and The Bee- "Again and Again"

Jim played this song in the costume shop, and I bought their CD.
I love it. And then after the fact I realized the same band has a song on the Sex and the City soundtrack, "How Deep is Your Love..." Although I like this song better and it is a better representative of their overall musical style.

I love making new musical discoveries!

omg.

CANNOT HANDLE

Wow, so I really have been slacking on my blog.
Anyways, so this is what has been going on lately...
I have been appointed the "makeup artist" for CSU's The Cripple of Inishmaan... I have to do extreme old-age on Mammy, a character in the show. It is difficult as it involves a prosthetic nose, and a ton of shading/highlighting effects, but I've gotten it down to a science now, and I enjoy doing it and being able to produce such a dramatic transformation. Apparently people have had trouble recognizing Lena- people have said that they thought it was an actual old person, one person thought she had on a whole mask, someone thought she had prosthetic cheeks... while part of the effect is lena's wonderful acting, I am glad that I have been able to provide the visual effect! Also, it is the best tech job EVER. I don't have to spend 11 hours at a cue-to cue or tech rehearsal, and I don't have to wear all black everyday. I just walk in, do the makeup, and leave. I hope every show from now on that I am not in has a crazy makeup that I need to do, haha!

Anyways, so yesterday was Valentines day!
The life of a college student and dorm life sometimes makes it hard to plan anything special on the actual day... so me and Matt went and saw Cripple together and then we went to Wendys and Sonic afterwards. It was really fun, actually, being able to just spend time together and talk and eat junk :P
After that we played Beautiful Katamari (BEST VIDEO GAME EVER. The concept? You roll the entire world and solar system up in a ball, starting with tiny objects on the earth. Hard to explain, but once you play it you will love it unless you're one of those normal people that like their video games to make sense... haha.)
and by then I was extremely tired so I went to sleep.

Today we are going to go to Fujiyama for some hibachi grillin' goodness! :) I'm excited.

OH- so how about I am not the proud owner of a SNUGGIE!
I know, I know, some people like to say that it is just a backwards robe, blablabla... but in reality it is wonderful because it is LONGER THAN A ROBE which means it COVERS YOUR FEET and I am pretty much 95% of the time freezing my butt off... so it is nice and cozy. And I can be curled up in a blanket while doing homework at the same time! I'll upload pictures later.

So I was just browsing the internet and I came across a disturbing discovery: the Baker's Edge, EDGE Brownie Pan. Now, whenever I see a pan of Brownies, I am always the one to go for the soft and chewy middle part... and will make strange cutouts so that I can get to it, bypassing the hard edges. This pan is so depressing to me... because they ALL are edge brownies =[ It just makes me sad, but apparently some people really like edges.... strange.

its been awhile.

So I realized I haven't actually blogged in quite a bit...so it seems I have a lot of catching up to do, huh?
Well for one thing, Fat Men in Skirts went great! It was such a fun show and the audience seemed to really love it too. It was a learning experience... especially the last performance where our understudy went on, and I burnt my hair off literally with the curling iron.
But other than that, it was awesome! Haha.

Now that its over I have other shows to work on. First of all, I'm makeup artist for the Cripple of Inishmaan, which is exciting because I am listed in the program and get theatre practice hours and everything for showing up, doing old-age on a few people, then leaving.
Then I am also stage-managing a One-Act called "Oh Dad Poor Dad Momma's Hung You in the Closet and I'm Feeling So Sad" (That is a mouthful!) and I also hope to be IN a One- Act as well.
AND in the meantime I am assistant props master for Machinal... and I am a performer in two different freestages.
Now that I sit here and look back on all of this it seems like complete insantity. Add to that rehearsals for my Meisner class as well as my secondary voice class and you can see how it is that I get stressed so often, haha.

And right now I'm getting over being sick... it is only really bad after I sleep, like in the mornings and then after naps, etc. I feel like I am coughing up an entire lung. I actually got sent home from class this morning which was weird in one way, and cool in another, haha.

But for now I am enjoying my weekend SO MUCH...because I have no rehearsals or anything! It is amazing. Today all I really did was hang out and watched Tim and Eric Awesome show with Matt, took a 2 hour nap, and now we were playing Katamari but I am taking a break. It is such a crazy game.. you just roll up things haha. It's hard to explain... but its really really fun!

So on another note... lately I have been wanting to do something completely crazy and drastic with my hair...I would love to do something like this:
And I know it is completely crazy... I mean I have long, blonde hair right now and I feel like people would not even recognize me if I had this hair haha.. but that is one reason I would want to do it.
The only thing that would keep me from doing it is that I just got new headshots made this past semester... and I have auditioned for jobs that are not casting for awhile, plus I have other auditions coming up as well and I want to keep my hair the way it is right now. Plus I feel as if long-ish hair fits my type better.

It's just that it is so damaged, especially after dyeing it and burning it off... I want it gone. And I am sick of the blonde, too. It's just really played out right now I feel and it looks dingy... it's just not that pretty anymore to me and I need something fresh! If I don't cut it in a crazy short pixie cut like VB's (which will most likely NOT happen)... I may just get it right above shoulder length. Meh.