ever after!

So as of late, my life has made a significant improvement! I think that I may be able to get out of this weird funk I am in finally, haha.

Here are the reasons why:

• All the one-acts I am involved in (OOTI and Oh Dad) are OVER! And they both went over wonderfully. I am definitely going to miss the OOTI cast, and I am very proud of the Oh Dad cast (but I will not miss stage management, that's for sure! haha)
• We have a wonderful, nice apartment with a pretty pool and workout center to move in to on the 15th!
• Finals are next week! That means this semester will be over soon. YAY.
• I went to a costume fitting today and I found out I lost an inch overall everywhere! I am so excited because working out and eating healthy has paid off. I feel so much healthier as well.
  
• I just got cast as Little Red in the Schwob's production of Into the Woods! I am SOOO beyond excited. I'm sure alot of people are wondering how I even got to be in it, as I am the only theatre major that is in it. So this is how: I am taking voice lessons at the Schwob, and some of the cast has fallen ill, so they were shifting roles which left one open for someone to fill... my voice teacher recommended me, I went in to audition for the musical director, and there you have it, I am now cast! It's really exciting because it will be in the Bill Heard theatre, which is in the Rivercenter and is HUGE... and super nice. And also the sets and costumes will be designed by Kim and Steve, and they are hiring as the director a guy from the University of Oklahoma musical theatre department, who is apparently really good. So yeah it is a little bit stressful as I don't have much time to learn the part, which is not small. But I am so thankful for this wonderful opportunity! =]

The only thing that is really stressing me out right now is JUNIOR PROFICIENCY. But seriously- once that is over with- life is so much easier! Of course, there is dance extravaganza as well, but that is really not that stressful. It's just fun! =]

So basically

well hello there

So the semester is finally coming to close.
What a crazy semester it has been! Starting with Fat Men, then doing makeup for Cripple, then Kapow, and Situations, and doing makeup for Big River, then Once on This Island and stage managing Oh Dad and then Machinal... it has been intense to say the least!

But I am grateful for every minute I spend doing what I love! =]

I am really excited for what the future holds... I will actually be staying in Columbus this summer instead of going back to Augusta for the first time. It will be really weird, but in a good way!

Hopefully over Maymester something really exciting is going to be going on that I can't speak of quite yet, but I am really excited to possibly be a part of it...!

And then there are auditions for the Springer season as well as Chattahoochee Shakespeare. Even though I am not cast next semester at CSU, I am not going to let that hold me back! I am finally going to get my feet wet in all the community theatre opportunities around town. The Springer is doing Footloose at the beginning of next year, and I don't see why I wouldn't get cast in at least the ensemble! I think it would be super fun.

Whenever CSU gets out of this rut of doing depressing, abstract plays, it will be my time here. (Crazy for you anyone? Can I just say that I am STILL beyond excited about it. I don't think there is anyone else in this entire department that is as excited as Robin and I are about this haha) But until then, I will still keep myself busy doing other things. Hopefully over the summer I will have a job as well, and then I am also taking a biology class, so I can get some cash flow as well as 4 credit hours under my belt! I also need to be finding scenes for directing and reading alot of plays and such.
As much as I would like to say I can finally relax over the summer- I don't think it is really going to happen haha. But hopefully I will still be moving forward in my career and my life so that is my main goal anyways.

Anyways, off to class voice!

on dealing with things.

So today we found out that a friend from the theatre department passed away suddenly from pneumonia.

It has been really somber around here all day, and has infiltrated all of our goings-on.

I still haven't really reacted to it- which is weird... like I haven't even felt like crying at all.

Granted, I was not that close to him. But I did enjoy his presence when I did see him, and there are many that were just as close to him as I was that are not able to take it well and that have been really upset all day about it.

There was a big informal group get-together type of memorial thing earlier, and most of all of the theatre department went. I did not. Does that make me heartless? I don't know.

I don't really know why I'm feeling devoid of emotion towards the whole situation. '

In one way I think it hasn't truly sunk in with me yet. Even when I found out, I did not really comprehend it.

I think I don't really know how to deal with the fact that someone is just all of a sudden gone, and I am choosing not to. I don't know.

5 years ago, I had to watch my father battle leukemia for 7 months, and then be told that he had 3 days left to live. My father, whom I was extremely close to growing up. I feel like I may have cried enough for my whole life in those 3 days. It may be that that is the only way I can really comprehend death, that is, being told in advance. Which is pretty uncommon, actually.

It's a much different thing to just be told, 'hey, btw this person is gone'
It is just kind of surreal. I'm not going to be that person that is like, "Oh I love you so much" and act like we had this tight relationship when we obviously didn't. However, I saw him on occasion, and everytime I did he never ceased to bring a smile to my face.

I just don't know how to really react I guess? It still seems like it hasn't happened. I still feel a disconnect to the whole thing. I don't know why. I think that I have gone through so much pain that I won't let myself connect with it. Who knows.

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Awesome Cakes!!

So I happened to come across these awesome cakes made by www.pinkcakebox.com.
They are so amazinggggg!

i'm ready.

I'm ready to stop feeling like I'm never going to be good enough.
I'm ready to live a healthy lifestyle again.
I'm ready to stop being so hard on myself about everything.
I'm ready to stop being so closed off all the time.
I'm ready for this semester to be over.
I'm ready to be on my own.
I'm ready for something really awesome to happen.
I'm ready to start having a normal social life again.
I'm ready to stop taking classes and just do theatre.
I'm ready for my turn in the spotlight.

things are looking up...

So lately I have been feeling GREAT.
I have let myself get in a pattern of junk food/binge eating and no exercise over the past few months... and I decided that it needed to stop.

For the past week or so I have been trying to eat healthy, and go running whenever I can fit it in (This morning I ran at the Riverwalk for 30 minutes- and it was wonderful! Such a beautiful, day too.)

I feel slimmer already, and its not that I even trying to "lose weight" or anything, because I'm not overweight, but I just want to tone up and get muscles again, and just generally be healthy! Because I have to say, that I feel really wonderful now that I'm eating healthy and drinking lots of water- several people have told me how I look good/better... it's great!

On another note- we found out what the musical next year is.... and I couldn't believe it when I found out- but it is CRAZY FOR YOU.

And everyone in the department is annoyed pretty much.. except for Robin and I. Because let's face it- we were both MADE for the 1930s-40s. And Gershwin's music is wonderful, and the whole show is just fantastic when it is done well, which I know we will! Many people are annoyed because of the fact that it is a "high school musical"... but honestly? What musical ISN'T a high school musical. Everyone wanted to do Into The Woods...but there are so many high schools that do that!
I think people don't understand the time period of the musical and relate it to old people. But whatever.

I will literally kill for the role of Polly. She is the lead, and when we did it in high school, that is who I played. It was the most absolute fun I have ever had working on a show, and all of her songs are made for my voice.

SO yeah.. excitinggggg! =]